I've never looked at it this way, but as I sit here in the MVNU study room, fully aware that if I do not do my homework for my private Christian university , stop admiring how beautifully wonderful my girlfriend is, and writing melodic worship music in my head, that I will lose this school, my job where I get to tour around a small section of the midwest leading worship, this summer, this school year and the next.
So does God bless us, knowing full-well that we'll be overwhelmed all of the time? As I see it, God has given immense creativity when it comes to composing music, writing stories, performing humor, and everything in between. He has always blessed me with a wonderful job at a wonderful school. Lastly, I have an extravagantly stunning Christian girlfriend, plus great friends and tons of other people that I just know.
All I did was reiterate what I said in the beginning, but as I am sitting here, attempting to wittily write a little bit about how I feel, procrastinating further on already late, procrastinated papers, I wonder if God is testing me and wondering how far I can push to discipline myself, or maybe my intrinsic writing abilities are meant to be further developed and that's why all I can think about is music and not homework. Why is that schoolwork is the one failing aspect of all my priorities?
I love all that God has given me, but can I honestly handle all of it?
